Princess Kiki, you'll never know how much you mean to me. You were my best friend and always will be. 

You were the most beautiful animal I have ever seen. Everyone you came into contact with adored you. You ruled this house - I hope you were happy whilst you were here. It kills that your life was cut so short. 

I see your picture, I smell you on the empty pillow next to mine.

You have only been gone five days, but already I'm wasting away.

I know I'll see you again whether far or soon.

But I need you to know that I care and I miss you.

I knew you were looking forward to summer, endless days of hunting in the garden and sunbathing in your favourite flower beds. 

I thought that you would always be with me, I know your soul is still with me although your body isn’t. 

I'm so sorry that I wasn’t there when the car hit you; I wish I couldn’t have been there to save you.

I promise that I will never replace you and that I'll think of you constantly. 

I just wish I could have one last cuddle. I'm going to miss the time we used to spend together at the weekends. It won’t be the same without you. 

I'm so sorry that I told you off on the morning of the day you passed away, if I had only known this would have been the last time I would see you alive. I can still picture your little face looking up at me - your big eyes. You were so beautiful, too beautiful. I doubt I'll ever hurt this much again. You were my companion, my number one. I stayed with you right up until the last moment, although it was so hard to do. We made sure that the vets looked after you well and that you stayed in your favourite basket with your favourite blanket. 

I can still remember the first time I saw you as a kitten. You were so little, a perfectly formed little cat but you were only a few weeks old. You were so scared, Quincy looked after you. You grew up to be a strong and loving puss. 

You loved hunting but you also loved your cuddles with all of us. Not many humans let alone animals can get mum out of bed to feed them in the early hours of the morning - you could. Mum doesn’t know what to do with herself, I know she’s trying to be strong for me but deep down I know she feels as bad as me.

I'll miss your little squeak when you were waiting to come into my room. 

We had so many good times together, when I took you to the studio to have your pictures taken, when we used to share my dinner, when we used to play together, when you would come and wake me up. The house feels so empty.

I want you to know how much I love you and that’s why I’m doing this. I’m desperate to find ways of remembering you – lockets, making photo albums filled with endless tributes to you, buying so much pink stuff to remember you with and to make me feel slightly better for a few minutes. You loved pink also and this is how I’m going to remember you. 

I promise you Kiki that I’ll do everything I can to remember you. I miss tickling your little warm stomach and dancing with you in my room… 

Me, Mum, Kelly, Leejon, Tim, Vicky, Quincy, Jude, everyone – we all miss you! 

Sleep well Princess..

I love you and miss you too much. 

One love…..



Lauren x x x x x x x x