Dedicated to the "Bandit" that stole my heart...
Part I
How do I say goodbye to the one who brought nothing but happiness to me each and every day, to the one who stole my heart from the minute I laid eyes upon him, the one who was always there to listen, the one who literally "washed" away my tears no matter why they were falling, the one who spoke to my heart without having to say a word...
How do you say thank you to the one who made your life brighter just by being around, the one who stuck by you no matter what, showed you that when you truly love someone, no matter what, they are there for you, who showed you that there is such a thing as unconditional love...
How am I to put into words how special you were and always will be to me, it almost seems impossible, boop, but I am giving it my bestest try...
For the past 13 years you have been "my boy" and I have been "your momma", and even though we cannot see each other right now, this will never, ever change. You will forever be in my heart. You have left your paw print there and nothing will ever take that away.
I still haven't figured out what I have done to have deserved such a precious gift. My last gift to you Boopy, was allowing your pain to be taken away. This was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. You never once showed an ounce of the pain you must have been in, I know you were being brave for us...and I had to be brave for you, my best friend, in this last test of our friendship. I hope you know that even though I promised I wouldn't leave you and that I would take you back home, I couldn't. I did what was best for you. I would take the pain and devestation I feel now a thousand times over, if I knew the decision I made saved you from one more second of pain. I've been thinking everyday to myself, what if I only knew it would be the last time I'd be able to "smooch" your "fat little" velvet head, take you for a walk, come in and bother you while your were sleeping, watch you make your "nest" in mom's bed or the rugs, visit you in your "bunker", have you beat me down the stairs, listen to you bark at everyone and everything that passed our house, watch you puff your cheeks when you were angry, watch you play "scary bone", steal things whenever I put them down, have someone ask "Is he a puppy?", I could go on and on, but I know in my heart I couldn't have loved you any more than I did, you were and always will be my heart, I loved you more than most could imagine. 13 years have passed in the blink of an eye. Our time together seemed too short, but I wouldn't trade one moment of it for anything. I'd only wish for at least 13 more. Each day from now on will forever be changed, for a big part of my life is gone. I feel like I am in a fog. There is an emptiness inside that will never go away, and even though my heart is broken, I would do it all again without hesitation. You were and always will be my special boy and I will always be your momma.
(I've run out of room here Ban, but I continued it in the Memorabilia Section..PartII...)