Dear Dally, I sit here waiting for you to come home. I can't allow myself to think that you are gone. I try to comfort myself with happy memories, or thoughts that you have gone to a better place, but it just doesn't seem to work. I feel so guilty for your death. I don't what the last image of you in my mind to be the one that I saw. I do feel fortunate that I was able to hug you and tell you good bye, but at the same time that makes the hurt even more painful. Will you ever know how much I love you? I know that past 3 months have been hard for our relationship since your baby sister was born. You were not happy with mommy because you were feeling you had been replaced. I feel so badly that I did not give you as much attention as I had in the past. If I could have just snuggled with you more or took you for more walks, or talked to you more often... I would give almost anything to have you back. Our house is so quiet. EVERYTHING here reminds me of you. I am just so worried that you were feeling that mommy didn't love you as much anymore. Please know that this is not true. You were our first child. Your daddy and I are so lucky to have had six AMAZING years with you. I know that you are in heaven in the good hands of our family members who have gone before us. I will get to see you and kiss you and snuggle with you again someday. I just wish that it could happen now too. Dally, I will love you forever! You are my sunshine! All my love, Mommy