The morning of Feb 10th 7:00am my husband woke me up and said it was time to take Cha-cha to the vet.  She was going to get some teeth extracted.  I woke up and kissed her before she left.  I looked at her as they walked out and she looked back at me.  When I looked at her I had a bad feeling that she wouldn’t be coming home.  I went back to sleep because I thought everything would be OK.  I woke up and called my husband and Cha-cha was doing good.  He told me the vet called and everything was OK.  He said that they had been working on her for 1.5 hrs.  Then at 12:15 my husband called me.  I still remember the words when he called.  He said he had something important to tell me.  Cha-cha had a heart attack while she was under.  He didn’t even finish talking and I knew what happened.  My heart was broken.  I couldn’t control myself.  I cried.  Please someone help me. 



From the day it happened I can’t eat or sleep.  I miss her so much.  I have so much pain from losing her.  We were together every day.  I was with her for 7 years.  Now everything is different.  We have lost a part of our family.  I don’t hear her barking anymore and the house is so quiet.  The happiness from her is gone.  I still remember her laying around in the house.  She loved to lay in the kitchen and watch me work.  She would turn her head to watch me as I moved around.  I would put her on the chair so she could be close to me.  Sometime she would lay on my feet when I was cooking.  I couldn’t move, but I let her stay there.  Every night she would sleep with me.  She loved to cuddle and hug.  If she wasn’t with me, I couldn’t sleep.  I would have to go look for her.



Sometimes when I went out I would feel guilty.  I would have to hurry home because I knew she was waiting.  She missed me and wouldn’t eat until I came home.  Now she isn’t there waiting for me anymore.  A few days before she passed I sensed something was wrong.  I felt like I might lose her and I wanted to spend a lot of time with her.  The Sunday before she passed I wanted to go shopping, but I changed my mind and took her sledding.  We took photos and video.  Cha-cha loved to play and have fun with me.  She wasn’t scared because I hugged her and kept her safe.  She had a lot of fun that day.  After sledding I took here for a walk.  A big dog came by and I grabbed Cha-cha to keep her safe.  I was worried the dog would hurt her.  She knew I would protect her when she was scared.  That night I cleaned and brushed her, but this time it felt different.  I spent a lot of time with her.



The day she passed I let her go to the vet.  I wanted to help her because her teeth were hurting.  I cannot know what happened for sure in the vet’s office.  I feel like I will never know exactly what happened.  She didn’t have me there with her and she was scared and didn’t feel safe without me.  She left me and I didn’t get a chance to say goodbye.  It was a devastating shock.  When she left she took my heart with her.  I want her to know that I miss her and love her so much.  Mommy,Daddy,Dom and Bandit still love you and you will be in our hearts forever.