Bud was the most perfect sweet adorable yellow lab that ever lived.  He loved hunting for birds when he was younger with his daddy, then I met Bud and he became a mama's boy, we did everything together.  He has never been sick ever in the 15 years then this past march he got diabetes, so he was on insulin, then last month september he had 2 seizures cause of low blood sugar, then he started to loose weight and muscle mass in his rear legs, then this past 2 weeks he couldnt walk, we had to put him down this past saturday.  I kept putting it off, cause I ddnt want him to leave.  But wasnt sure how much pain he was in from a nurological stance.  I want to say that mommie and daddy miss you very much, and I cant stop crying for you, I can still smell you...my sweet precious boy.  You have always lit up my eyes when I saw you, and I miss you laying on top of me on the couch watching t.v.  Mama misses you so much and hope I made the righ decision, and hope you are not mad at me.  I feel like someone ripped my heart out,sat when you left me....my heart and our home is empty without you here....we have a candle lit for you everyday.....Mama loves her baby boy more than words can say.