Even though you were only a cat...You were my cat.  You were the only one who never let me down, never hurt me.  Thank you.  I never thought it would hurt me so much not to be able to hug you again.  I'm so sorry I wish I could have done more for you.  It's strange how much my heart is aching.  I know it will stop I just wish it never had to be this way.  Your death could have been prevented and I feel like it's all my fault because I couldn't afford to make you all better.  I'm so sorry.  I will always always miss you.