Heaven passed suddenly on Monday October 16, 2006. She had just turned 5. Her death has left a huge void in my heart and my home. I have been staying at my moms since she left as it is hard to cope being alone with out her to cuddle me at night. She was known by every person who met her as the most uniquely affectionate and tolerant cat they had ever met. She had enough snuggles, head butts, and purrs for everyone. Even if you were new, she would jump on your lap and rub her face on yours. She purred me to sleep every night. I found her as a tiny kitten in the SPCA and knew the second I picked her up that she was the one. I held her like a baby and she touched my faced with her tiny paw and gazed up at me and never looked away. I took her home immediately and since then her love and affection has been second to none. I recently bought a King Charles Spaniel pup. Heaven was wary at first but it took not but a week before they were sharing cuddles and kisses. Willow, my pup, has been depressed and clingy since Heaven left us. She can sense my pain and is trying her very best to comfort me. I was unreceptive until yesterday when I had a bit of a scare and thought she was sick. The idea of losing both pets was unbearable and I took my little Willow up in my arms and held her close and we both cried.
When I found Heaven lying still on the floor of our living room, I lost it. It didn't seem real. How could this be happening? We just had snuggles the night before, I could still feel her warm tummy on my chest as she purred and Willow chewed on her ears and head (she loved that). I screamed and cried for her to wake up. My boyfriend rushed in to find us and when he realized what happened he crumbled with me. He had developed a bond with her as well and we are both having a hard time accepting that this is real. After I calmed down a little I sat next to her and stroked her fur and scratched her head and told her everything I needed her to know. That I loved her so much, that she was the best kitty I could have ever hoped for, that I would miss her, that I was sorry if she died because of something I did, that I hoped it was quick and she wasn't in pain, that I hoped she was in a better place, and that I would see her again someday. We buried her with her favorite toy she's played with since she was a wee ktten. I have a beautiful picture of our family that was taken shortly after we got Willow. I am framing it and water proofing it to put on her spot in the backyard where she is buried.
Heaven will be remembered fondly and always with a smile. She warmed my heart and showed me that animals are loving, sensitive, therapeutic, sweet, funny, loyal companions. There's nothing like the love of a kitty. I will miss you baby.