"Twinkle twinkle little star"..."If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane...I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.." my heart aches for you. My precious Twinkie was the best friend of my beloved little Muffy dog that died in 1998. She literally gave the love of two pets when he died and continued her love right up until and after death. Her comfort until death was my priority..There was no recovery possible. I  promised this angel that I would not have her put in a hospital with needles and tubes and she would not die in a place like that nor by any decision I made unless she were in horrid pain and I knew she wanted to leave. She did not want to leave me... She could not get close enough to me....I kept her at my side on on my lap or held her every moment possible. Then...she died 4 days after the vet visit for a recheck in a mattter of a couple minutes.  She appeared to not be able to breath.  I actually tried breathing air into her mouth and she was trying to get my air...I was trying to give her my life force...then the little cry, the paw embrace and she was gone.  I waited until the next day to take her for cremation. I could not part with her... She had signs of death but somehow she had closed her mouth as I embraced her that night...and her appearance was not "death" typical in the morning..Her little face was as beautiful in death as it had been in life. The vet said she was gone eventhough I insisted she may have been in a coma. I know She did not want to leave me that Tuesday morning and as I cradled her in my arms I cried out to God and my little Muffy dog to help her..My grief is unbearable as it was with Muffy...Twinkie was always told she was the most beautiful kitty in the world and she was....even after she died...she made sure her face was picture perfect and she did that for me. Twinkie was solid black, long haired with the most beautiful green eyes you could gaze upon. It was as though she could see right into my soul..I know she did that Tuesday morning...part of me left with her and my remaining kitties are grieving for her...

"Twinkle twinkle little star"....My love for you will go on through eternity as it will for your best friend, my little Muffy.I feel your little spirit, your love....but I can no longer hold you and my tears cannot stop...I miss you my little kitty angel...

                      Love, Mommy