To my love, Ella, 



My heart aches for your sudden departure.  You were so happy and full of life, on such a beautiful day for us both to be sharing.  Little did I know what lie ahead that day, and had I known I would never have left home to keep you safe and secure.  In the blink of an eye, you went from full of life to watching your life slip away from me into the hands of God. You lay there lifeless and wounded.  I was traumatized, numb to what to do.  I am having such a hard time without you, my Ella.  You were my great love, and I do not know how to move forward.  We were inseparable.  I could not have ever asked for a better companion than you.  I am so grateful to have had you and will always, always love you.  We have been though soooooo much together, and you were always there for me, bringing me much comfort, joy, and much laughter.  Where do I go from here my lil one…I’m so missing you. =( I can’t imagine life without you.  Unbearable to think.  The house and my life are so quiet now without you.  You were my lil ray of sunshine every morning, and my soft place to land at night. Memories of you at home are everywhere, serving as a memorial and testament to the love you gave me, making it difficult to press on as I reflect upon the memories. You gave me unconditional love and so much affection.  I never tired of holding you, kissing you, and making time. Greeting you with my special little sayings that only we knew and sharing the fun together in our playful routines we had with one another.  I loved you, protected you, and will forever miss you, always asking myself why such a senseless tragedy and in the manner it happened.  Why?  And, ‘What-if’? ‘What-if’ things were different, as I replay the unfolding tragedy in my mind, asking myself over and over how I could have saved you from this evil. 



You had a day of beauty at the Doggie Spa just the day before this  senseless tragedy.  You looked as amazing as ever!  You were very healthy, happy, and with so many years ahead of you for me to share.  You brought a smile to all you met.  I miss you Ella, you were my baby, my one, my only, my one true love that will always be my forever companion.  I am sadder now than I have ever been in my life, and do not know how to carry on.  You gave me comfort and stability when life around me was crumbling.  No one has ever given me unconditional love as you.  



There will not be a day that goes by for the rest of my life that I will not be thinking of you and our brief time together.  I took it for granted, as many of us do.  I thought I would have so much more time with you.  I looked forward to each day with you, making new memories as we stepped out together, sharing our bond of love with whom all we met.  I was blessed with the privilege of caring for you.  We had so many more wonderful days ahead together to look forward to.  I’m so sad.  It’s hard to imagine I will ever stop feeling the pain of losing you, my love.  I will forever love you my lil Ella!! I look forward to the day again when you run and jump into my arms, and we once again embrace one another on the streets of gold.  Ella, I love you.  Yours forever.