I loved her...what more can I say?  I blamed myself for not being there.  I never expected her to die because she never acted old.  She was found dead in her doghouse, curled up like she was asleep.  I work in an animal hospital and I've seen how animals can die. I could not have asked for a nicer death than the one she had; I can only hope that I go that peacefully when my time comes. I wish I had not been so busy; I should have spent more time with you... You are always in my heart.  Please forgive me...