My Darling Chip,



You have brought so much joy into our lives and your passing away has left a hole in our hearts.



You would wait for me to come home from work and ask me where I went and why I was so late. You would wrap your tiny paws around my neck and go "ooowww owwww owwww". You were like a puppy yourself when you had 9 pups with Cindy and how you loved to play with them. You were a great father, the best! Hated it when I would shut them in a room to clean the house. You would tap the latch to let them all out. I will never forget the way you would baby sit your pup so that I would not be disturbed while cooking. You understood every word I said.



You were sent by God to look after me and cheer up my days. Thank you for warming my toes as I worked through nights on my computer. You were so jealous of my comp when I first started working from home. Being a big dog it was very funny the way you would try to sit on my lap and look at the computer trying to understand why I spent so much time on that machine and not enough with you.



When we adopted a baby girl you were so protective of her. You loved children so much and were so happy to have a beautiful baby of your own. You would not let me scold her or shout at her as she grew into a naughty little imp. Your passing away has taught me patience and to live for others.



You passed away just 3 months after we put Cindy down. I remember when we carried Cindy to the car to take her to CUPA you came creeping up to the gate to see what we were up to and the thought just flashed through my head "you are next". Cindy brought you up like her own pup. She was your companion and now, will always be.



You seemed a little down the week before you died. It was Tia's holiday time and I was so tied up with her I did not realize that you were sick. All my instincts were screaming at me and telling me to check on you and i was just too tired to react. I can never forgive myself for that. You were so brave you did not whine. I am so sorry I did not note the symptoms of your liver failure and call the vet. Till you stopped eating and your stomach swelled up, only then did I realize that you were very sick. 



I left you in the hospital thinking I will come back in the evening and look you up never knowing that the long glance we exchanged as I left would be the last one. Our uncle died the same evening and I could not come to see you. It breaks my heart that I could not. You always stayed close by my side at home. I just can't begin to imagine your fear as you stayed there surrounded by barking dogs and doctors who must have been even more scary. And no mama around when you were so sick. 



I woke up at 4.30 am and knew that you were dead. I could see your beautiful soul a glowing light form in the shape of your body sprawled out on your stomach. 7.30 am the animal shelter called to inform us that you were found dead. I felt my heart would break that my baby died all alone. I realized later that you came and woke me up to let me know. We were together in spirit . Suresh had to go to arrange for Uncle's funeral so I was left to bury you alone. But you know we both love you tremendously.



While we were at the funeral mass for our uncle I felt your presence there. Barking to let me know that you were there with uncle. Then you sat beside me for a while. I am grateful to my uncle's soul that he was there to help you and bring you to church to meet me one last time.



I miss you and keep crying ... I know you are in a better place and the crying is mainly for me.. my pain, my guilt, my loneliness. Tia misses you a lot she keeps asking about you. I hope my crying does not disturb you. Please wait for me my beloved baby and welcome me home when my time comes.