My baby was diagnosed with lymphoma about three weeks ago. She was on medication the whole it and was in great shape. On Oct.7th I kissed her goodbye as I was leaving for work. When I returned home I found her barely unable to get up. I rushed her to the hospital and they explained to me that she had had a CVA more commonly know as a stroke. They kept her over night to monitor her and called me in the morning to come pick her up. The vet told me to spend sometime with her because it was probably getting close to the end. I spent all weekend with her watching as her health became worse and worse. I had an appointment for 8:30 Monday morning on Oct. the 10th to put her to rest. I was really struggling with the fact that I had to end her life. At 7:45am on Oct. 10th. I was saying my final goodbyes before leaving my house to go to the animal clinic to put her to sleep. I explained to her how much I loved her and that it was ok to let go. She passed away in my arms right then and there. She has always been a faithful cat to me. The fact that she wanted to spend every last moment of her time on earth with me really showed me that. She not only waited until the last second to be with me, she also didn't make me have to live with the "what ifs" that I would of experienced if I would have gotten put to sleep. As I hold her in my arms right now, I struggle to decide what to do with her physically remains. I know that she will always be with me in my heart and soul, but it is going to be so hard to let go of her physical present. Everyday when I would return home from work she would greet me at the door with her silly vampire teeth and her old lady meow. She knew how to get me every time. I have had my baby girl since I was a young girl myself, so as far back as I can remember, she has always been with me. She comforted me when I was sad, she made me laugh when I was mad, she never let me type on the computer without typing a few words herself, and she always kept me warm at night. I loved her purr, I loved her meow, I loved her eyes, I loved the way her tail twitched and how her fat tummy shook from side to side as she ran, I loved her smile. I loved everything about her. I am just so happy that there is no more pain for her anymore. All of my family was able to say goodbye to her on the phone last night and I sure that meant so much to her. My heart will be breaking for a while, but I will have a lifetime of happy memories of her. I love her so much and I will miss her everyday of my life.  She was my "P" and I will never have another like her.