How do I start? I adored you from the moment I set eyes on you all those many years ago.. you clawed me to bits in the car when I brought you home, and I didn't care one bit! At first, you were named 'Sophie' but after just one night your personality shone through so much and you just didn't suit the name.. 'Annie' sounded more 'you' and so that was that. My Annie.



No cat or person in my life ever came close to meaning as much as you did.. you were my world, my best friend, a companion I wanted for life.. even when I got Married and you got yourself a Dad.. he always knew you were my special girl, and you would always be more important than anything else in my life. You took to Craig so well, unlike any other person I had had in my life, maybe you knew he was the right one, the one who would love you as I did, and adore you like I always have. Your loyalty to me shifted, and you became 'Our girl' and you loved it! Seeing you both together meant so much, I am just sorry he missed the years before we met, the years when you were younger and lively and so very funny in your ways.. the way you used to help yourself to crisps, it was your 'party trick' ... a russle of a crisp packet and you would come running for miles..



You slowed down alot by the time Craig came into our lives.. but you were still the wonderful baby I always knew.. he was lucky enough to know you for half of your life.. for that he is thankful.



I hope you understand why I left you that day in the vets.. the day I made the ulitmate decsion and kissed you goodbye one last time. I couldn't bear to see you suffer anymore and even though I know I should have stayed and held you while you went to sleep, I wasn't strong enough.. I couldn't face seeing you laying lifeless.. so I left.. in my heart I know you probably didn't even notice I had gone, you were in such a bad way, not responding to me at all.. but I will regret that decision forever.. I should have been there for you then, as you had always been there for me.. I am sorry.



My days now seem dark, and so very lonely.. the other cats know you are gone and seem depressed, you made such an impact on us all. I know you are in a better place, and that you can see again, and play like you used to.. I know you know happiness now and that is what matters. I will wait patiently until the day I come for you, to hold you again, and to know the love we shared again.



Until then, my special wonderful girl, I love you, and I will miss you everyday.



~ Annie's Mum xxxxxxx