yesterday (monday may 2nd 2005) was probably the worst day ever i came home and having my mom tell me my horse had died. i was in complete shock. she was my baby. i showed her and trained her went on trail rides with her. have been giving 2 girls lessons on her. only knowing that she was perfect for me. its so hard knowing that she isnt in sight any more. she tried so hard for me. there was only a few times i got mad at her. but she was worth having. she was my christmas present in 2002 and i new she was the perfect lil arab for me. we qualified for state for gaming this past year. and i showed her in gaming and i was gonna do the junior rodeo. but now my hopes are down i cant do anything with her anymore. nothing. there will never be another horse out there that will have the same bond as me and risky had. We worked so hard together. On our days in performance she new what to do.. she moved me up from novice to senior. and we did gaming for  3 months and then went to fair and qualified for state. Not all horses can just turn around and do gaming and qualify.. and its kinda rare to find that versitile of a horse. i cut her tail hairs off so i had something to keep of hers...  I had a show next saturday that i was planning on taking her to and running for our medals in showmanship and barrels. its crazy how she isnt there. i just cant believe it. ive had a really hard time with this... my room is basically based around Risky all our ribbons we have won together. (over 200 ribbons ) pictures and all.) then when i go out to the barn i see all her tack and her stall empty. i just break down and cry. i cant stand it. i miss her so much. why her. She will always be in my heart! always and forever!