MY MOST PRECIOUS BABY B DIED JUST LAST MONTH. IT SEEMS LIKE JUST YESTERDAY AND AT THE SAME TIME IT SEEMS LIKE AN ETERNITY AGO SINCE HE WAS HERE WITH US.BACK IN OCT.OF 1989 MY HUSBAND AND I WERE SHOPPING IN THE MALL. WE WERE COMING UP ON THE PET PAD PET STORE AND I FELT COMPELLED TO GO IN. I WAS JUST LOOKING AT ALL THE PUPPIES, LIKE SO MANY OF US DO, HOPING THAT SOMEDAY THEY WILL FIND A LOVING HOME AND FINALLY BE FREE OF THOSE SMALL GLASS HOUSES. THAT'S WHEN OUR EYES MET EACHOTHERS. I WAS INSTANTLY DRAWN TO THIS PRECIOUS LITTLE ANGEL. I JUST KNEW I HAD TO HOLD HIM. AFTER ABOUT 5 MINUTES, I TURNED TO MY HUSBAND AND SAID "I AM NOT LEAVING THIS STORE WITHOUT HIM." MY HUSBAND SAID "DEB,WE CAN'T POSSIBLY COME UP WITH $500.00 RIGHT NOW. IT'S SUNDAY AND ALL THE BANKS ARE CLOSED AND THE PET STORE IS CLOSING IN LESS THAN 30 MINUTES." I TURNED TO HIM AND TOLD HIM TO FIGURE IT OUT, AND I WOULD BE RIGHT HERE WITH OUR NEW BABY WHEN HE GOT BACK WITH THE MONEY. I KNEW I WAS BEING UNREASONABLE, BUT I DIDN'T CARE. I KNEW IN MY HEART HE WAS MEANT TO BE MINE. EVERY MINUTE SINCE THEN HE WAS EVERYTHING I EVER ANTICIPATED AND MORE. I WILL NEVER FIND ANOTHER FURBABY SOUL AS LOVING AND PURE AS HIS. I AM THANKFUL EVERYDAY THAT I HAD AS LONG AS I DID WITH HIM. HE GOT TO BE SO OLD, AND HAD SUCH A HARD TIME GETTING AROUND. I KNEW IN MY HEART IT WAS TIME TO LET HIM GO. I WAS WORKING MYSELF UP TO THAT FATEFUL TIME AND TRYING TO WORK THROUGH ALL THOSE SELFISH ROADBLOCKS THAT KEEP YOU FROM DOING WHAT'S RIGHT. THAT'S WHEN WE FOUND HIM..FLOATING IN OUR POOL. I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO FORGIVE MYSELF FOR ALLOWING HIM TO GO IN SUCH A COLD AND FRIGHTENING WAY. HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN GIVEN A PEACEFUL WAY HOME, WITH MY LOVING ARMS COMFORTING HIM WHILE HE MADE THE JOURNEY. I HOPE WHEN THE DAY COMES AND WE ARE TOGETHER AGAIN, THAT HE KNOWS I NEVER MEANT TO LET HIM DOWN. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH AND MISS HIM MORE THAN WORDS CAN EVER EXPRESS.HE IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE A HUGE PART OF MY HEART. I PRAY EVERY NIGHT BEFORE I SLEEP THAT HE IS FINALLY AT PEACE AND RUNNING AND PLAYING AGAIN LIKE THAT BEAUTIFUL PUPPY THAT CAME INTO MY LIFE SO LONG AGO. MR.B...TILL WE MEET ON THE RAINBOW BRIDGE....THANK YOU FOR ALL THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES. I HOLD THEM CLOSE TO ME UNTIL I CAN ONE DAY HOLD YOU CLOSE AGAIN. LOVE ALWAYS, MOMMY.